I want to say something about how I'm doing though. Cause lots and lots of days, I don't want to talk about it.
In particular, I am not always filled with happiness and joy! I know that's shocking. So if you ask me how I'm doing, and I don't say
Things are looking up!then you damn well better take that for an answer! What the fuck is it with people questioning my mood? Arguing with me? Seriously, I know my mood better than you.
Things aren't bound to get better. In fact, I have a year of worsening crap to look forward to. I don't feel bad about throwing my mom's impending death at people like a weapon. If I don't want to talk about my mood and people can't take my deflections or a hint, I'm going to be as blunt as possible because it shocks people and it gets them to shut up. When I say I really don't want to talk about it, I really don't want to talk about it. Stick to small talk if I don't open up.
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