King Rat (gkr) wrote,
King Rat

Things that scare me

Most of the meme going around I'm not going to bother with. Might have a post or two covering parts of it.

Things I am afraid of.

  1. Asking women out or making any kind of romantic/sexual move. This stuff scares the living daylights out of me. When I do this, rest assured that no matter how calm I am on the outside, on the inside I am quaking. There's a saying I learned years ago (and recently repeated in geekalpha) that you can't think your way into right living, but you can live your way into right thinking. I believe very strongly in this idea, and so I do these things in spite of my fear. What about this scares me? Rejection, partially, I think. But most of it is an unformed angst. I should also note that I am much better at this than I was years ago. BOth in just doing it, and in that my fear has lessened.
  2. Dealing with/selling my house. I have no idea what about this scares me, but I get seized up whenever I think about it.

Yep, that's only two things right now that really scare me. I have lots of little fears, but none that impact my life. I fear riding on roller coasters and other adrenaline junkie activities, but this doesn't really affect my life. I simply won't be jumping out of an airplane, so does anyone care that this bothers me? Also, spiders and needles. But neither of these are strong fears. It's almost to the point where I simply just would rather avoid them, not that I am afraid of them.

If you ever hang out with me, ask me what I was afraid of 10 to 13 years ago. The list was lengthy.


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