April 13th, 2008



Mom cannot finish more than 2 or 3 pages without nodding off. It means she is losing breathing function a fair amount and there is a buildup of CO2 in her blood. Since she is already on a bipap machine, the only thing that can really improve it is a trach/ventilator or going on oxygen. She decided against both. I made her promise to ask the hospice nurse about her breathing and oxygen levels.

I am starting to feel like this is her last days. I hope hospice can tell. I need to know if I need to get the family here for their last visits or not. Most have visits scheduled between now and the end of June, but I'd hate for them to get here a week too late.

Anyhow, I'm all sorts of fucked up right now.