January 3rd, 2008


How am I doing?

I've mostly been without internet since Sunday morning.

I want to say something about how I'm doing though. Cause lots and lots of days, I don't want to talk about it.

In particular, I am not always filled with happiness and joy! I know that's shocking. So if you ask me how I'm doing, and I don't say Great! or Things are looking up! then you damn well better take that for an answer! What the fuck is it with people questioning my mood? Arguing with me? Seriously, I know my mood better than you.

Things aren't bound to get better. In fact, I have a year of worsening crap to look forward to. I don't feel bad about throwing my mom's impending death at people like a weapon. If I don't want to talk about my mood and people can't take my deflections or a hint, I'm going to be as blunt as possible because it shocks people and it gets them to shut up. When I say I really don't want to talk about it, I really don't want to talk about it. Stick to small talk if I don't open up.

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