July 11th, 2006


On awakening

On awakening, let us think about the twenty-four hours ahead. We consider our plans for the day. Before we begin, we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives.

Tentative plans for the day include: calling the carpet cleaning place to schedule my carpet cleaning for the same day the building's hallways get cleaned, tackling my pile of paper, watching Imaginary Heroes which has been sitting on my D.V.D. player for four months, and quitting my W.O.W. guild.

In addition, since it's my birthday, I'm going to celebrate by having breakfast at the 14 Carrot Café in a while (join me if you like) and possibly going to D.I.E. for the first time in years.

We'll see.

I've been slacking for years. I make various promises to get in gear, and then fail to follow through. No promises this time. Since unemployment, I've done a couple of things better. My place is cleaner. I've gotten more reading done. But I haven't made use of the time to connect with people much. Yesterday I made plans to have dinner with my grandparents tomorrow. I had been telling myself I would call and then didn't. Yesterday I just picked up the phone.

I really wish there was a way to turn off my procrastination. I don't have a problem with hard or tedious work really. Once I start something I don't seem to have a problem with a task. But I can never really seem to get myself to start something and get through the critical first steps.

Enough of the introspection, since people are actually reading this.