December 6th, 2003

Hard Hat

Company Christmas Party tonight

Last year I got all dolled up in Utilikilt and collar and ended up with my co-workers trying to sneak a peek when I wasn't looking. Deborah accompanied me, wearing a full-length P.V.C. (or some other artificial material) gown. The event was boring and the food was tasteless. Went to the Mercury afterward.

I'd rather not go, but politically speaking, it's a good idea to show my face for a little bit. So I shall do much the same as last year. Get dolled up (in something other than Utilikilt perhaps), make an appearance, and then go to the Mercury (where I hear it's vulture23's birthday). The theme is Carnival in Rio which means we are supposed to be colorful. I have nothing particularly colorful. Maybe an afternoon trip shopping downtown to get more colorful clothing. No date this year though. No way do I want to subject anyone to that again.

MacCauley

Not breaking down over Matt

One other thing I've noticed this year that is different from last year is that not once have I become non-functional remembering Matt. Last year I walked to Pacific Science Center to get tickets to Star Wars, and on the way back I just started bawling. All the time this would happen. This year it hasn't happened. I miss him very much, but the random emotional breakdowns have ceased.

I don't know if I am glad for that or not.