May 2nd, 2003



Did you ever see the movie Kids? That was the movie that put Chloe Sevigny on the map. Disturbing movie. This one will disturb you in the same way. Cause this movie is about… drum roll please… pedophilia. Well, not completely. But it's a major part of the movie. Brian Cox plays the pedophile. Wonderful acting job. I've also heard his commentary on the DVD is very good. However, I couldn't bring myself to watch the movie a second time to listen to the commentary. So it's sealed up in the Netflix return envelope.

Howie Blitzer's mother has recently died on the Long Island Expressway (L.I.E., the title has two meanings). His father is neglectful but present. He already taken up with another woman when he is indicted on federal charges. Howie has taken to hanging with Gary, a local street-walking kid. They break into houses. But one of the houses Gary already knows. It's the home of Big John Harrigan, our pedophile. He catches Howie, but then takes a big interest in him. Gary, already ruined by life is just using Howie and John to get away.

Basically, this is Howie growing up in a week. It's disturbing in that they present a pedophile as a likable guy. For that reason I can't recommend the movie. It presents it as sucking the soul out of John, but not as a judgment. I realize that pedophiles are not like Darth Vader in their evilness. If they were, they wouldn't be able to lure children so well. In this movie, Howie isn't stupid. He sees what John is trying to do. But just because it presents a truth about pedophiles doesn't mean I want to see it presented.

Anyway, the movie is well acted. It's a bit choppy. Some jarring changes of pace, and some sections that really drag. But because of the whole creepy angle, I'd rather not think of this movie much again.


What I want

When I am 80, I want to be my grandfather. I want to have lived a long full life. Done interesting, although maybe not earth-shattering things. I want to have been with the same person for decades. That doesn't necessarily mean marriage, although that would be nice. And I want family that belongs to me. Generations of them. That doesn't necessarily mean they are my own, although that would be nice. But they could be nieces nephews adopted or whatever. But where I've got a connection with them. I want to be able to tell them stories.

That's what I want.



I love maps. I don't know when it started. The earliest stuff I can remember about maps was reading Mapping, David Greenhood's book. But I was already interested by then. Don't know what I did with the book though. But if you ever want to get me a gift, this is the book.

I hated National Geographic, but my Grandpa Weiss gave subscriptions to it as gifts. I loved the maps. I used to keep them, but again, I don't know what happened to all of my maps from that magazine.

Even now, I have to stop by Metzger Maps on 1st Avenue relatively frequently. Like a bookstore, I can't leave without spending money. The Rand McNally map store on 4th sucks. Don't bother with it.

My current map list is:

  • German map in English
  • German map in German
  • Benelux
  • Iraq
  • Iran
  • Congo
  • 3 of India (Western, Eastern, and Southern)
  • Coastal Oregon and Washington
  • Ontario
  • Manitoba/Saskatchewan
  • Alberta/British Columbia
  • Washington
  • 2 of Idaho/Montana
  • Michigan
  • New Jersey/Pennsylvania
  • New York
  • Arizona
  • Kitsap County, Washington
  • Latah County, Idaho
  • 3 of Berlin
  • San Leandro California
  • Amsterdam
  • Puerto Vallarta
  • Tacoma
  • Boise
  • Baghdad
  • San Francisco transit map
  • Seattle Metro transit map
  • 2 of Pacific Crest Trail (Northern Washington and Southern Washington)
  • Mount St. Helens National Volcanic Monument

I have a Thomas Guide for King and Pierce counties. A Rand McNally road atlas of the U.S. And a deluxe faux leather large size world atlas.

And I don't think I have anywhere near enough maps. I wish I still had my National Geographic maps.

If you are the type who ever wants to get me a gift, bring me a map. Or someone asks you what gift I would like, tell em a map. I read books more, but I am likely to have already read any book given to me as a gift. But maps, another map of the same place is even better. Obscure maps are great. Free chamber of commerce type maps. Maps of cities passed through. Maps of campgrounds. I love maps.