March 9th, 2003


Not depressed

The really weird thing is I am not depressed at all right now. I am in this out of body like state, at least with regard to things which would normally emotionally bother me. Instead, I feel like I am a spectator in my own life. And not in a bad way. I don't want to be a spectator, but this is different. Dispassionate. Like fate has already decided its course and I just need to find the map.