October 24th, 2002



So I call the French Quarter Landmark Inn to check on our reservations. I've booked two rooms for six nights. I simply want to confirm the reservations and make sure we can get our rooms next to each other. Apparently, we don't have any way to ensure this. They look at the reservations the morning we arrive and arrange our rooms then. Supposedly, rooms booked together like this have a high priority to be located near each other. But no guarantees. I know I can get irritable when I get screwed with, and I bet Deborah can raise some holy hell as well. So they better be making this a high priority or else there shall be a discussion. Still keeping my fingers crossed. Thinking that flashing the IATAN card may help get the rooms together. I hope. Maybe Lee is a hell-raiser underneath that laid-back exterior, and then they would be having all three of us on their case.



I broached the subject of the family get-together this Christmas with my mother. I am going to be pretty broken up to start. Basically, I do not think I can handle being around a large gathering of family members, all of whom are trying to console me. All of whom will be grieving some as well. I found out last year that it makes things worse for me to be consoled, especially by people who I am not especially close to (such as my cousins). My mom was pretty understanding. Joe is also having some issues with this too.

So at some point around Christmas, we are going to do a small family gathering. Immediate family and my grandparents. Perhaps dinner. My mom wants to do a gift exchange to honor Matt, mostly because Matt had purchased small gifts for us last year even though my family had stopped exchanging gifts. I am pretty sure that's not how I want to honor him, but I am not sure what I want to do instead.

Here's what I know I do want around Christmas. I want to spend time around friends. Other than Jason, none of my friends knew Matt, and they will not be grieving. They can be a shoulder to cry on, but not pushing consolation on me. Deirdre offered to spend some time with me around Christmas. I am hoping to corral a couple of others as well. Some quiet mellow time.

For those reading who are new to my journal and haven't read back, my brother Matt died on Christmas morning last year on his way to our family dinner.


In lighter news: costume

I have a costume for Halloween. I'm still looking for something else, but if I can't put something better together. I have this for a backup. All I need to complete this one is a cheap black tie. I have a nice black tie, but that would just be wrong. I am not sure what I really want, but I was looking at something that could be a Cato costume. While not as classy as what Deborah and Lee have, I would at least have a mask like them. Not sure I can put that together before hand though. We will see. Might make that my Saturday project.